divebunnie

So… the funding came through! I got the final call on Monday and suddenly realised that not only had I not prepared physically for this, I had also not dared to prepare emotionally for this in anyway! Where I should have been cheering and dancing for joy, I sat numb with shock, suddenly very aware that my life was about to change quite dramatically. I knew in my heart of hearts that this would be a good change, however there was an inner fear of it all that kind of overtook any joyous feelings I should have been having. I could not work out whether this was my gut feeling telling me this was a bad thing to do, or whether it was just me being a big fat coward.
The original plan had been for me to fly today, however after getting the final decision, I realised that that would have been cutting things just a little fine. And with this being my birthday, maybe it would be a good thing to spend it with my family and friends. This also gave me a little breathing space to get the practicalities organised. Needless to say, I also have my course notes to finish for the Pop Academy work I am doing in September!Eeek!